thoughts of a euphoric mind

thoughts of the high mind. i had so much to say, that i thought about in my head..while i sat here so still... waiting for the browser to load. and when it finally did. i typed in the first sentence. and had no though at all. as soon i planned to jot down all the deep shit i was thinking i couldnt even remember it. and the way everything is right now, feels like a movie. im in the center of my bed, legs crossed, hair messy, pitch black. with my blanket over my shoulders down my back. i just realized (through this image) even though i forgot everything i was about to talk about. i still managed to fill this space with words. i think when you're out of your element, otherwise HIGH; it stimulates your mind to constantly have thoughts. every moment you actually realize how high you are because the way you're thinking. i dont know if thats for everyone but it applies to me. however, actually i dont think the word "however" is even fitting for the beginning of the sentence. BUT however (lol), i tend to keep trying to come out my high to see myself seriously and realize how i am. because i know that im thinknig all this shit up, and its all making so much sense to me... if i tried to explain this to someone in person they would get irritated and brush me off saying "you're high" watever. enough with that i d g a F is no one understands what im saying. whats misunderstood aint gotta be explained, lil wayne couldnt have stated that any better. im so aware of everything touching my skin right now. i feel relaxed also, tensed. i feel like im trying to relax every last bone in my body from my scalp (i know thats not a bone) to my toes... is toes a bone? hehe. name a bone... rib bone. and idk i cant think of none. a chin bone. haha. is you high or suttaan? uhhh uh gurrl i am solidddd. shooooot. lmaooo something in my head was sayin that. eeeee :). iim happy but, thats jst the idgaf -part of(from) the weed kickin in. because im rlly sad. i wish things could go my way. theres something i never told anyone... and it ended like that.